IT’S BEEN A WHILE
The last time I was writing for ADORATION, I was a single woman writing about finding peace in seasons of waiting and overcoming comparison. Behind the scenes, I was a woman still wrestling with the idea that if ‘God loved me’ and had ‘made me promises’ when would I live these out and see them come to fruition. I was living out a breakup, an unfulfilling job, and a lot of closed doors… it soon became easier to blame God, and it didn’t take long before I viewed Church itself as an unsatisfying ritual.
I could see my heart hardening by the day.
Looking back, I almost find it humorous how I could instantly blame God for everything bad happening in my life, and never have given him credit for all the good he had done in my life.
When we really think about the amount of disappointment, blame, and guilt we place ON God, rather than placing it AT God, laying it all down at the foot of the cross and giving him our disappointment, blame and guilt.
It’s no wonder we find ourselves stuck in a cycle of self-hatred, shame, and darkness.
I put a pause on writing for Adoration because I felt like a fraud, how could I attempt to inspire and uplift women when I can barely lift myself out of a bad attitude, and how could I teach about God when I couldn’t even hold a consistent prayer life.
I have learned that there are seasons for everything, including a season for rest and reflection.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest".”
MATTHEW 11:28
When I sensed the call to ‘rest’, I was obedient to this. I stepped back from certain commitments, reevaluated unhealthy patterns, spent more time with God, and realigned my thinking.
12 MONTHS LATER…
I am starting fresh and writing today as a completely new person, I got through university and graduated with a Masters in Social Work, I ended up marrying the most pure-hearted beautiful man of God (the very man I was having a breakup with months prior) and together we have taken a big step in trusting God and moving to a new state (something I NEVER IMAGINED happening).
It has been one of the most incredible seasons of my life.
I am constantly dreaming of what Adoration could be, but ultimately, I hope that in this new exciting season I can help grow your understanding of the Heart of God.
I still have so much to learn, but I also have a lot to give, so get ready for a
NEW YEAR OF ADORATION
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